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Christmas day - B just left angry and not willing to fight for me. He refused to ask a hand from my dad. It's all the way I want to be - it's not the way it works here in America. It is all difficult. It's not what he wants - he wants to do it his way - hang around with me, play with me, sleep with me, get to know me. Maybe it's too much. I need to learn to live without Bryan. He is an amazing in cleaning and helping out. He doesn't want to bring my dreams to live. We don't have the same dreams. He says wealthy billion dollar people know how to leverage their personal lives too. I will disagree - these people are unbalanced. I will be looking towards unbalanced. How do I survive, and not only survive but strive in this time. His loves me his way - he loves as much as he can - he doesn't l…

I am at work, and I am going to write about work. My priorities:

I would like to come up with a good sense of what Riley and Keith are proposing.

I need to discuss the processes of spec creation with Andrew.

Here's how I see it:

Andrew send an email: ask to come with 1 pager proposals for:

- event - daily events - most fun events

- return bonus 1-7-30+ictivity bonus

- first time purchase offer

- subscription

- increase scratch tickets value

non-user:

- dynamic RTP

-a/b testing

-android

-classic games

fundamental:

- content merchandizing/anchors/rooms concept

- Fort Knox equivalent feature

- blue ocean feature

Outside Fort Knox:

- Kiwi strategy review and proposal - meeting with Thomas - kiwi and Ellen overview

- 1.0 slot selection IK present

Today I came to work early. I spent a night at the new house with my dad. I think an incredible journey is awaiting for my dad in Seattle. I need a teamwork to help me make my father's time awesome. He will feel awesome for sure. About B - we are going to talk tomorrow - Friday. I talked to him yesterday - he was very very sad, and angry. I felt for him. My dear lovely, unbelievably sweet and loving B. Someone who actually loves. He is ready to stay with me and love me and take me as I am. Things that were turning me out - his not fun talk about business - jewelry. His boyish, not thought-out things like - here's how boxing works. His insistence on it is deeper, it is more meaningful. It is much more subtle, for our intelligence level we can do better. His mixed words I cannot understand…

It's December 19th - one day before my dad's arrival. I am excited about my dad. I am concerned about B, and my future.I learned something - I am writing a story that nobody else have written before. Meg Whitman, corporate women, or young women entrepreneurs - they have not written a story I am writing right now. Relationships - I think successful women had very supportive, confidence booster, mastermind husband. Is it true? Did all male founders - great achievers have supportive, caring, confidence booster wives? Did they have distractor wives, who needed attention, and were going against the husband's will - to show that they the husband is wrong. None of he women that are out there have ever done - what I am doing. It means I will write a relationships page that no one has ever written…

I am in University village starbucks. I really had a wonderful day. I am not dinkin my latte and preparing to do soul and job work. Soul work - Bryan. I wrote my letter. It is not for faint hearted. You can read it below. Now I ma going to work on letter to George. Letter to George is sent. Now I am going to start working on Andrew's slidesSuspicionI felt the way I felt because of three reasons:First I recall a story in spring, when I, coming back from my coffee/reading session in Fuji bakery, entered the elevator at Asia Condos. I had several strangers in the elevator and noticed there is something familiar in hands of a woman in the elevator. When I exited the elevator, I zoomed in the image in my memory, and realized that the familiar object was – the keys from Bryan’s apartment. Can I…

- tie DDC 1.0 marketing and content with finance, revenue and spending per month and per year

- bring strategy insights to Kiwi, what is happening

- tie stronger all actions to financials

I will pure out the thoughts. I went for an amazing hike with Max. We talked about his sect and cult experience. What I was happy to hear is that Vipassana is where he found the most joy and meaning. It means I can do it too. I am working on a bundle of projects at the same time. My work - impressing Koreans, positioning myself and bringing value. My Leanin project - interviews are awesome, now I am going to interview accomplished ladies. My airbnb is on hold. My Max project - I am so happy he is working, and he is accomplishing. I am content to have him. He also cares about people. So far I have scheduled trips with Nelly. I also want to visit Laura, Sarah in Chicago, Vipassana retreat, and most of all really want to go to Kazakhstan. I want to go to Indonesia, to Italy with my mom. I wa…

I am at work. It is going to be a slow day.

I had my period today. In fact I was a little sad. I could've had a child in July.

It needs to be right. I would like to get my family blessing and marry. Marry in US first.

I went to Smartsheets Startup grind event yesterday. It was pretty fun. I am in the middle of my career when I am doing things, pretty big scale important things. Building up my reputation, and my reputation capital. With Leanin project and my Director position I am working on.

Thank you world

I am at work and am content. I unloaded the work to Riley. My chip jar email and understanding is ready. I am ahead with MM. I need to make a couple slides there. Tasks: - MM slides start - Roadmap with Suzy - payer analysis thoughts So over all I am ahead. I am okay. This weekend I spent very well. On Saturday I went to leanin event, interviewed a lady, and then spent 3 hours relaxing with Dina talking about boys, and 4 hours working - it was really nice - I was proud of myself. On Sunday - I woke up and was waiting for my B. He came and was affectionate. Then we went to travel to Issaquah. We kissed and my head was going round. On Friday we had a warm, confidence growing and successful meeting with Naomi, Dina, Kate and myself. I am very happy to share the results with the team. I think…

I am at the office. It was a good day. I worked for a couple days on org structure. Last two days I got some nice compliments. Joe said I was awesome, and Haenam said it is a great job. I am writing now to regain myself. I worked all week, and didn't plan anything for the weekend, and now I don't know what to do. I still have a lot of things to do - lenin emails, answer recruiters, scheduling trips, prepping for my dad trip. I also need to relax very deeply, and I need to take my mind, take it somewhere very far. Fun day is tomorrow. I am going to clean Aza's place - 9-11, come home and go for fun brunch at Ira's. At 4pm I would like to go far far away - and watch fun fun movies, and take a long long walk, and look at the sky. - and think of people who change the world, and think of pushi…