December 19th Seattle Tuesday

It's December 19th - one day before my dad's arrival. I am excited about my dad. I am concerned about B, and my future.

I learned something - I am writing a story that nobody else have written before. Meg Whitman, corporate women, or young women entrepreneurs - they have not written a story I am writing right now.

Relationships - I think successful women had very supportive, confidence booster, mastermind husband. Is it true? Did all male founders - great achievers have supportive, caring, confidence booster wives? Did they have distractor wives, who needed attention, and were going against the husband's will - to show that they the husband is wrong.

None of he women that are out there have ever done - what I am doing. It means I will write a relationships page that no one has ever written before.

Deep inside you know that B is not giving you support you need when you are down. And deep inside you know that he will interject his will against yours. Do you need to manage your personal life?

Now think who is the person then? a very very smart guy - is my guy, who will buy into my dream with selflessness, who loves me and is similar to me. It's good I have experienced it with my dad.

Do I like B's personality - he is a fun creature, who taught me a lot - who unknowingly gave me confidence - and new perspective.

If we talk to phycologist about our dreams - what are our dreams. If we go to a therapist and a coach - maybe we can do it. I think he is willing to do it.