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This week I: - publish 2 new apps with whatever assets I have - talk to marketing advice and trademark advice - understand the load and crash issues Monday: prepare assets; schedule marketing phone call, trademark phone call, talk to N regarding the crash issue. I will keep posted every day from Monday now. Think about promoting, marketing etc. a week later I am kind of consumed by the opportunity to start a company. I know that there are a lot of unknowns. How can you win in this battle. I see a couple opportunities: a)cater for low end devices, ipads; b) understanding the server making sure it doesn't crash. Talks with N: - understanding the server and crashes issue, identifying how to bring solve this issue. On the other hand, I know that if I won't move fast with building and testing…

Slightly over 6 months passed, since I joined this company and moved to Seattle. Did I grow? What did I achieve? I gained confidence in American company. it's good. I come up with brilliant b idea. I am going to pursue. it's awesome I am frequent in capoeira, and learned some new tricks: bridge -out of bridge. I understood that I don't want to code, but can lead technical team My goal at job now is to: a) educate and publish my research for the entire company, educate executives; b) go with the next research and actually learn things - whale research; c) gather a small set of supporters under myself; d) build something small. My achievements at work: pitched in front game designers in Reno prepared presentation for a VP My achievement outside of work: capoeira, friends, started coding. I…

I woke up sad a little bit today. One reason I feel less connection to B, I feel I can move forward. It is sad, because just a week ago I was weeping, and on my knees to be just near him. He is right, I have a lot of things in my mind. My mind is hovering around: azamat and what I do with him; B; my personal life - my husband, my productivity; a desire to write; my sports. I would summarize it: 1. personal life - It's a mess I know it, I can change it, but not yet. I want to sink into the ehnwiprhv. I don't know when to start. Actually, my hope is that I will meet M at the conference in Kellogg. I should! 2. work life - outside work I put some pressure on myself - I am building an app, selling my business. 3. other hobbies- writing, capoeira, putting Kazakh clothes on the market. Ah, with…

I am in Seattle, and am living my life. Again I feel like writing a book, going into writing. Going into wondering, and feeling this life in full potential. I need to work to do that. I need to set time for that. If you don't have anything to do, just study, you will study, you will write. This week I feel absolutely like writing, primarily due to love. Falling in love with this guy, that makes me think so much, that makes me understand and untangle all these crazy emotions. Also, love for womenhood. Uneducated, and therefore naïve, and therefore effective. do you like it? I also really want to be an entrepreneur. I shouldn't go to too many directions, it is just I am getting very passionate and can't not write. I think when you have it in you, it is a waste to let it go, you have to catc…

this s how life goes I was sleepy but I am okay now. I wax thinking about models. They are on the top of the world. But only few of them become someone bigger. I went to the best school in the world, but only few really make top of the top. God sent me to be born in the certain minute, I was born a woman. This is what I feel about Bryan. I want him to feel what I feel, I want revenge. When he invites me to messy meeting with his friends, am going to wait 15 minutes, don't call, and leave, don't answer. Let him explain to people, and him cry in the restroom. I want to be unbearable. So he can't take me anymore. I want to be such a pin in the ass, that he woudnt know where to hide himself. You think telling me - I don't know how this smart person can not see the message. You think telling m…

He is right. So many things are in my mind. I really wish Ira will move here. She will put up the fight. Today I soent an hour connecting with my friends - Nelly and Meru. Then I walked to cap hill. Spent an hour reading economist, and tow hours putting together Sarah's plan. My plan, it;s about felt clothing, old ladies app, and 10K to deploy to boost my reputation. :)))) hahaha I also think constantly about making house warming parties, and connecting with people. I think often of selling my business, and most importantly I think of fame, and the way I can make my move towards fame. I also think of writing a book. Yes I have many desires. The strongest one - to be loved, to be significanr and adored, and to surprise. I think my day went okay. or actually pretty good.... Now I am going h…

Uallalihu Oolala la la ihu pesnu pou, ochen veselo mne. Grustno naschet Iry. No nadeus eto ne vse Ah U menya v legkuu bolit golova. No nichego projivu Seichas poidu domoi, spat i mechtat Kak je ya hochu pomechatat V subbotu vozmu max i budu uchit unity wow Mechty, cveta, kartiny Radost i udvletvorienie Nejnaya Priyatnaya pora Ochei ocharovanie, Priyatna mne tvoya proshalnaya krasa I takie veshi vpered i vpered Ya budu idti vpered i vpered Cenu, lublu, veshi Cenu i lublu solnce Prekrasnyi opyt. Velikolepnyi rabotnik Zamechatelnyi rabotnik Prekrasnyi chelovek ochen horoshaya productivnost Mne etot rabotnik nravitsa Ochen horoshyi rabotnik ved Eto ochen nadejnyi otlichnyi rabotnik Prekrasno spravlyaetsa s zadaniyami Ochen umnyi Horosho vystupaet Otlichno chuvstvuet Luchshiy iz vseh s kem ya…

Well, it's Wednesday. I should be working. This weekend I spent shopping - successfully. I got my base covered with black and grey tone clothes. My Sunday I spent cleaning, relaxing. Sleeping during the day is awesome! This week and upcoming weeks I have a lot of work. I need some good focus. Therefore I bought myself a coffee and will be rocking from here. I often tell that because my work is not super demanding, I must work on other important things - however, I so far have failed to do it. My productivity was so so. How do I re-leverage, get light weight job in order to learn and move to some other important projects that I will be strong at. How? Just make it very clear that Thursdays you are working from home. Make sure that Saturday morning you are working on other things - complete…

I wanted to write no? I don;t want to write about sheet. I just want to relax. I actually want to get some coffee and start kicking off my weekend. It will be amazing. I will make it very amazing and productive, and fun, realizing , soul warming, nice. I am happiness, I am soul, I am sunshine, I am love. I spent my day reading Ferrante. It made me want to write a book again. I feel I will publish one day. I know I will publish one day, if only it is something substantial. I have a longing to have power on men. I want to have power and control over men. Strong grip, undeniable control. I am like volturi, I pick up men when theya are succeptible, when they haven;t been around women for long, when they need one, when they can be manipulated. When they want you so bad, they are ready to chang…

This weekend was one of the best weekends in my life. We went hiking to the lake Spectacle, slept in a tent, looked and felt good. Stayed in the Leavensworth, having great food. The best part was sitting in this beer garden, that looked completely like Jeruuk. Awesoem evening, calm, and warm and loving. Then the mlstbeautiful part was stopping by this gallery in Seattle, seeing these green paintings and videos, chatting with a human being about nothing, just about being human being. Now I am waiting for Bryan to arrive, I am looking forward to seeing him very much. I lke his smell, and most of all the fact that he cares about me. In this trip, while walking I was thinking about Z, that it is possible that we will be together. Sad it sounds, but as jake noted, go through what we want throu…