september 29

this s how life goes

I was sleepy but I am okay now.

I wax thinking about models. They are on the top of the world. But only few of them become someone bigger. I went to the best school in the world, but only few really make top of the top.

God sent me to be born in the certain minute, I was born a woman.

This is what I feel about Bryan. I want him to feel what I feel, I want revenge. When he invites me to messy meeting with his friends,  am going to wait 15 minutes, don't call, and leave, don't answer. Let him explain to people, and him cry in the restroom.

I want to be unbearable. So he can't take me anymore. I want to be such a pin in the ass, that he woudnt know where to hide himself.

You think telling me - I don't know how this smart person can not see the message. You think telling me I am not your taxi, is going to have no impact on me. Will be ignored. You think telling me in the middle of my trip, that you don't know what to say.

You telling me you told only designate some time for it. I don't care. This is how easy you let it go. If I don't fit your eschdule you let it go. Then go.

Invite me to an importnant event with your friends - I wil show up early, ait 15 minutes, don't call, just leave, and then don't answer, while you will be suffering in the event, telling people you don't know whether Ada is coming or not. I will do it.

When you will get emotional in the elevator, I will wait 1 minute, day Fuck you, and leave you in the middle of the street.

All these say that you have no care for me. Only for you. and I don't want anything to do with you.

Ask yourself first, why am I pissed off. because she didn't have time to talk to me before she left, and I am mad.

First you promise you find a counselor, then you say "no way I have time for it". You say I am all in, then yo say I don't know if I want t stick around yet.

Someone who decided to stick around, doesnt' act this way.

Azamat will live with me for 1 month.