Stanfordgirl

Continuation of my don't -know-where-to-sleep saga. I was worried, and then I just decided, I am going to go with the flow. Indeed, I had one wonderful night at Enlik's place, house full of happiness and children, and people! Then crazy B called me and came and picked me up, and showed so much affection, and care. and I spent these two days at his, and he was very loving and good. here we go. I am here exactly 3 months. Exactly three months since I started at DD, and one quarter of a year, 25% of the year I am here. Three months is not a long time, it took me this time to understand the space, and now I know quite a lot. I am well versed in the game content. This morning I wanted to get to work at 6am, instead I got t 7:30, and now it's 8:30, I need to focus. Good news is that Ro sent me…

June 15th

I need to decide how am I going to pend these 6 days when I cannot go home. Starting Saturday. First, Saturday and Sunday I could stay and play capoeira. Only thing it still leaves me with a lot of time in the evening to go somewhere.

Now sleeping options: B, Joe, Evelyn, Lu, Nacho, Enlik. Okay I am going to call kazakh's and find them to stay there over the weekend. On Monday I hope I can stay at Joe's.

Kazakh friends.

I actually did accomplish things I mentioned in June 4th. I decorated 99% my place, and went ahead far ahead than I hoped in data visualization. In fact I ma going to one training tomorrow.

At work I think I am on track. This week I am working well. I will need to continue with my push forward ethic, and be productive and efficient till the end of week, so I don't work on the weekend.

Now about love. I think he should ask what is important to me and support me in it. Support with full force, with no reservation, with no doubt that it is good, be a team mate. Ask what I love, and try to give more of it. I love massage, I want hiking and swimming. I want to talk about God.

What do I want to do with Joe today. Do I want to have fun? What is important to me today? I cold go with Joe to my place and look at my apartment but it might be too much, because I ma going to be worried about B seeing me, and I can't eat anyway. Going with B is good, if we are going to buy shoes and bathroom mat. I can do it tomorrow, if needed. I think I will go buy mats myself, snack bar - basket with B, Thursday dinner with B, I don;t know. Okay. It is either, we are going to Okay, B just cancelled. So I can relax, should I go with Joe, but what would I do. I think I should devote myself to God today. Pray, listen to religious music, call Meru, call Nestan, call Vincent, call Venera, call my dad, find the gift for Venera. Wish, and make a letter. How can I make the difference in the…

Here we go. It's June. You girl didn't even recognize summer came. And it came with full force and with it's sweetness. Sweat sweet summer. Mua! I want to thank God and people who helped me. I was rewarded more than I ever expected. Never did I know that I have enough financial resources to do so many things, and to lead such a healthy life, have flexibility to do what I wish to do. I know what american dream, security and freedom mean. I am grateful. With great reward a great responsibility comes. First, I need to strongly concentrate on delivering exceptionally and consistently great results. Pray and do your job well. Also, build your confidence. Work more, invest in your skills. I need to get excel and data science course. My priority for the month of June - get excel and data science…

Interesting things about B - he is offended when I am asking about his previous women. That he gave up too early, or stick too long. He says none of his relationships were generic. Interesting

Gratitude is rare. Gratitude in the group of people I hang out with is banal. He knows a lot, and he is humble, and therefore there are not many subjects he is interested in. He is detached from life. It is so rare to find someone to have interesting conversation. I wanted to take the full gratitude for the song I am listening now - sexy Sadie. The soul is singing. Since I moved to Seattle, I have really REALLY a lot of sings I need to thank God for. First is my Kellogg classmate, the fact that we are together, we are different, we love each other, we are in the community, we are one. That is a gift. Life gave me this gift of meeting these people and being part of the union. Second, I need to thank for the job. This job gave me financial health and happiness associated with financial stab…

Interesting day. I start understanding and visualizing B. I see him being bored with the over confidence and shallowness of young girls like me and Nelly. Some more meaningful conversations are important, something you can learn from. Politics, health, social justice. Those conversations are interesting but not like they are getting him ecstatic. He doesn't know what it is. Don't ask emotionality from him, ask for physical help, he likes it. He said I like multileveled stories (true), and women and their strength. Then when he gets emotional like last time, just leave, and don't take it too personally. Then don't blame him, say your point, don't ask him to understand, he doesn't. Just show love. Accept that he is crazy. Accept that he doesn't think the way you do. Accept that he doesn't m…

here we go. I want to write a little bit about Bryan. Well, he really impressed me with Obama speech. He understands politics, he gets it, and he can be helpful in my political career. He comes short in business and structured thinking knowledge. He is what I used to be before b school, and it is discouraging, because the career is super important. He is going to be good if he agrees to learn with me, and not push back. Yesterday I was fully confident that he is good suitor for my future, due to this vivid future images - he let's me go with controversial experiments as adopting, physical experimentation, and unconventional self expression. He will be understanding and supporting. He is also going to be reliable, and will cherish our relationship. I have dream of having political career i…