Sunday May 22nd

Interesting day. I start understanding and visualizing B. I see him being bored with the over confidence and shallowness of young girls like me and Nelly. Some more meaningful conversations are important, something you can learn from. Politics, health, social justice. Those conversations are interesting but not like they are getting him ecstatic. He doesn't know what it is.

Don't ask emotionality from him, ask for physical help, he likes it. He said I like multileveled stories (true), and women and their strength. Then when he gets emotional like last time, just leave, and don't take it too personally. Then don't blame him, say your point, don't ask him to understand, he doesn't. Just show love.

Accept that he is crazy. Accept that he doesn't think the way you do. Accept that he doesn't make you shine, and doesn't let you tell him everything, some stuff just not interesting or invigorating for him.

I am a strong woman, with strong mental health. Crazy times in  Seattle. Life

Comments: indifference and detachment. Bryan has it. Hardly touching the surface of life. But going strong on his own emotions, and expressing them. Does he feel good, when he does it. He doesn't want to apologize for it.

Also, if a person talks nice about he wants in relationships, often they are illusioned and are in the cloud, often they don't act on the words they use.