Stanfordgirl

What is important? Important is to set myself so that I am able to get interviews this next week for an amazing job. What my brain is thinking about is - get phone working for Sania for tomorrow. Get Yura signed up for Sania for tomorrow. I am going to take it slow and releaxed. No tention - Yura shall I pick you up tomorrow at 8am for job, or would you like to come over in the afternoon. what do you prefer?What else is in my mind - getting all docs ready with John and telling him that, and finishing his portion of the application. So I spent 4 hours here at SBP. I have enjoyed my time for sure. I had a nice shower, I players capoeira, I truly worked on my back nicely. I prepared the pictures for Ralph. I completed questionnaire. However I did nothing about the job search. Well I still ha…

When in need and zatuhshee chuvstvo. Think about the following:

1. listen to beatles

2. listen to commencement speeches

3. listen to Steve Jobs

4. listen to Miyoshashi Son of Softbank

5. Try singularity university

6. check out conferences

7. Try books such as unlearn

8. watch Doctor Zhivago

9. you can go for a hike

10. you can go Ada's technical bookstore

11. you can read magazines - fast company

12. listen to Palihapathia chamah

Poluchitsa. documents:

social security, drivers license, car - 4 doors, background check

insurance not, plate not.

10 days wait.

everything online.

whole foods, prime- easy

catilka nujna.

foto - raz v nedelu

wire transfer to bank account

20-25 an hour, 40-50 hours

taxes at the end, for gas

phone - android, good one

za chas skazat.

I worked really nicely today. What about gratitude?

I am grateful I found Meditation made Simple. I am grateful Liv forgives me and is patient with me. I am grateful I did bouldering yesterday by myself. I actually enjoyed it a lot. I am grateful Allah gave me freedom and power to go there by myself, and enjoy it.

I am grateful I had a connection with amazing people like Bayram, Val.

I am excited about going to the gym and running hell out of my body. I am excited about going to Liv and relaxing.

During the meditation, I realized I am looking forward to having a glass of wine with Liv. To learning about the credit card setup from Sean, and working on the product with John.

I am looking forward to escape the hencoop, chicken run. I don't want to go to another hen house.

I feel poetic. I read this beautiful excerpt, and what it makes me feel like - like I belong to long do-nothingness. Vo mne stolko spokoistviya, vo mne stolko odnogo - jesus skazal - when teo becomes one, when upper is lower, when inside is outside, when male is female are one, then you enter the kingdom.V kakoi to moment ya hotela bezhat, teper ya chuvstvuu nehvatku vremeni potomu chto mne nujna pustota, no bereg na rasstoyanii ruki - vot chto mne nado. Mne nujno byt odnoi - tvorit, i esli mne nujno prosto byt s kem to i veselitsa, ya mogu eto sdelat, i pochuvstvovat lubov. Eto sostoyania - insightov i obreteniya - chuvstvo obretenia. Vtoroe chuvstvo - eto chuvstvo togo chto ty chto to varish. Varish s ludmi i vy berete energiu drug ot druga i vy vidite resheniya, i u vas vse poluchaetsa…

Let me write everything that is on my mind. This morning I woke up at 6am with an idea that I will focus and have productive work. However I got to work at 8:30. I also spent some time in the garden meditating. Slowly I understood that I am slightly depressed. What is known for sure:

1. there is lack of love and care in my life.

2. I want more exciting feelings, more extreme aliveness.

However at the same time I am buried in the list of small decisions and tactical steps. And more and more tactical things come to my mind.

Well, this week I am going to tackle almost all tactical things: address change, landlord, returns -oh I will never buy online clothing again - it was hard.

I came home from a beautiful walk to the qfc where I bought watermelon, oatmeal, broccoli, and ice cream - fun isn't it. listened to podcast matsre's of scale. What is the place where big ideas come to you. To me it's wen I have a lot of time - like 4 hours of uninterrupted block, a space where I can sit, and then big big space where I can walk. I am reading books - upheavel, simple physics, and rituals of genius people. In upheavel I learned about Finn's battle to deal with Russia, Japan's time when they overthrew shoguns, Chile's time with Allende and Pinochet in 70s, and ow they built a strong economy and strong democracy. In rituals I learned abotu Kant - and his adherence to discipline, that sparked around the age of forty, and was not fully obvious before then. I also read about som…