June 12th Wednesday at work

Let me write everything that is on my mind. This morning I woke up at 6am with an idea that I will focus and have productive work. However I got to work at 8:30. I also spent some time in the garden meditating. Slowly I understood that I am slightly depressed. What is known for sure:

1. there is lack of love and care in my life.

2. I want more exciting feelings, more extreme aliveness.

However at the same time I am buried in the list of small decisions and tactical steps. And more and more tactical things come to my mind.

Well, this week I am going to tackle almost all tactical things: address change, landlord, returns -oh I will never buy online clothing again - it was hard.