Stanfordgirl

My dad is here for three days. I am very happy that he is doing okay. I looked from the window and found a really nice view. American flag is flowing. I am living for someone else - I am living for my dad, to support him, and for my work, for my company. It is a good feeling. I would like someone to live and think of me. I can spend some good time with Z. He will always love me and will be a good father. I understand people cheating. You do a lot things home - and you want something for yourself.You live for your duty, but you want something for fun. Something just for yourself. Something just for my wife - to sweep her away. B taught me honesty - un-apologizing honesty. I realized that I spent six years with dear Z. It was a really good time - but it was a lot. I am for sure having troub…

I am going to take my time and sort out my feelings. I know how it feels to go and write a very difficult letter. I sent it. If someone sends you a letter like this means you have a power. In any case it is an experience, I don't know whether it is the only letter like this in my life. It is certainly first one. Certainly, I've never done anything like this. I have expressed myself unapologetically, yet thoughtfully. I think it is a compliment. I did take time to write him about my feelings. I think it is fair that I shared them with him, instead of keeping them inside. He is certainly my soul mate. He gets me - on the soul level. What am I expecting? I feel no not releave - I feel a confusion still. The fight between very tender feelings, warm memories, heart pumping with pure intentions…

Sorted out - why I get less money in December- paycheck issue

Called insurance company to lower the rate

And lastly called taxes person, I need to get my taxes back.

Rolling from here

In 10 days my dad comes to America. The moment I was dreaming about. The time I fantasized about. And he and I have enough space to be happy. Dad will have friends, it is important. He will make his own friends. Are we going to take a trip? So I don't know what to expect, but I think it is going to be amazing to feel that your dear father, someone you love dearly, someone who showed you what love is, is going to be sleeping in a room next to you. Yes, it is a lot of responsibility. I am hoping to give him - money to be independent, phone to call and call lyft. I hope to give him tours to Boeing, ballard locks, and other architecture tours. Kuda poidem pervyi den - v restoran ili gostei domoi pozvat? Poezdku budem delat ili net? Nikakih commentov po moemu stilu jizni: kakie u menya druzya,…

I am at work. Melancholy.

This week was fantastic. Sunday I went and bought some amazing clothes for myself. I spent a morning in Bellevue. In the afternoon I went to capoeira where I worked our really well. I came home happy and energetic.

On Monday I went for brunch to my friend Kate's place, I bought a pie. What can be better than a brunch at friend's place on the weekend. Only time with someone you love who is taking you somewhere.

I am going to drink some good tea, and get to work.

I was just texting with my Z. He is missing me.

Goal - start working next Saturday no matter what. Go ask Go Poke whether they will hire me on Saturdays - Monday

Then call Zarina and ask for an advice about jobs for Saturday, ask Aza, check sittercity.

I had just my first promotion negotiation. Learned things:- talk about your accomplishments more : wow, she really did all those things - that is a lot. Translate your efforts into revenue,

I talked about : work load, competing offer,

Another learned thing - go to Bobby more often and Joe, present it more to him

I am skipping work ow, but am feeling very motivated to work.

I would really like to bring my company back to growth.

Doubledown jackpot

I will do well

Maybe the fact that Aza is sad, makes me sad

I am kinda alone

I feel lonely

I miss home

The fact that I don't love Bryan anymore gives some seratonin purge

Wings fall

I need to create my baby, at work and in real life.

I will go back to creating my baby.

I am going to ask for a promotion, and get it.

In the morning waiting for the meeting. For whatever reason I am nervous. I will be okay. Andrea was nervous too.

Nice job for the first week of January. I have rolled out - research girls project.

1)This week I am going to play with 4 little girls. I will hone my babysitting skills, and will see tremendous joy in playing with my little girls. Love them!

2)I have also figured out Airbnb, now that I know that Emily is not coming, I reduced the prices and am planning to make some money in January!

3) I rolled out - gamer app with dear Ann Puzon. I am going to see whether she found me someone to build server - client communication. Oh, on Wednesday I am going to ask Andrey if he can help me with  building proper jackpot production and balance production for my app. Nice!