Stanfordgirl

My priorities, and my work.

Ah, I am so inconsistent.

My priorities:

- my startup. We will make it so work with Max

- my data learning  projects. I will be very proficient in python, and will know sql pretty well too.

- my job

- my lean-in project.

I don't have parents here. I don't have people I could lean on.
My mom always supported me in everything I chose to do.

I can learn all data projects using my work. I need a good kick start and I will be okay.

Ah, and also politics at work. Establishing myself. having coffee etc. with people.

I wish I was full of energy and super puper worker. I will accomplish a lot.

I woke up, realizing I didn't work yesterday. I got mad. I am irritated that I didn't work at all, that my weekend that I was waiting for is almost over. That my big plan to stay home and accomplish ton became stay home and accomplish nothing. I am also irritated that I cannot talk about it to Bryan, because he won't understand and will add even more stress to the situation making it all about him. On one hand he has low empathy to people's emotions. On the other hand, he is making decisions on a very different level. Level I don't understand. What is this level. How does he make decisions. On Friday I spent fun time with Bryan - we went food shopping, and bought a lot A LOT of food. After food we had a little misunderstanding about cosmetic surgery. We are planning to talk about - power,…

I am very lost. If I won't lie to myself, I will see that Andrea is not with DD anymore. I don't know what is going to happen to me. I am very surprised. Still waiting for an email from him, but in vain. I need too do my teeth very fast, I need to do my doctor appointment very fast. I need to apply to jobs very fast. I am afraid of the next 3-4 days. I am afraid of the week. The investors are here, and what did they decide. I have action paralysis. I don't know what to do. Get yourself together. Get yourself together. My nerves are breaking. I need just to feel positive. I feel positive and not very threatened, but I feel I am failing, completely out of control, not leading the events. That's it. You are working from home tomorrow. Z is leaving tomorrow. You will start by cleaning your de…

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I am home with B. He got injured trying to catch my egg. There is something philosophical in it. he was trying hard, his best to catch it. He was trying to get it for us. He is committed. When nurse said - you know how it is called - it's called committed. B said - it's called - I don't give up. He was very thankful with nurses and truly appreciative. Ah, how I wish I can take his pain away. I am extremely proud of my man. I am used to his facial expressions. I can read better. He is on the phone, he is mentioning my name, I matter to him. I am feeling love toward him. I don't know how to sustain my love - how to gain control of it, it is overwhelming. The only way to describe it that I keep coming to - I want to melt myself and pour myself my liquid self in a ceramic jar, and then get in…

I have attended Chapter Development Summit, and was very inspired by the opportunity to strengthen community of women striving to take C-level roles.

I am an entrepreneur at heart, who has a drive and dedication to be a energizing force behind this movement.

I am an entrepreneur at heart who wants to contribute with energy and tenacity to this cause.

I am at work and have a lot to do. Wah, I couldn't propose to B. Weekend and Zoli time figured out. From now on, Z will be inviting me to places. I would say Tuesday - beach party, anytime and Friday anytime. Then next week we have Gorge and we are good. There is really a lot z lot of things in my mind that I need to execute. I am going through machine learning class and I promised myself that I will dedicate sufficient time for it and become proficient in it. I am also starting my startup, where I need to find an animator and get plan nailed out. I also want to make one big leap and jump into the next level. Go get the salary promotion that will be higher - for this I will need to a. present very well in front of Kyle and team, present in front of company, hire and make new people perfor…

Nice work today. I learned all 20 first lessons on Machine learning. I reached out to tutors to get proficient with python. I promise I am going to learn neural network through this online course or through springboard or other certificate class. I will be proficient and knowledgeable in data. Now I am waiting to hear from tutor and springboard, whatever is faster. two things in my mind: - payer analysis - present to Kyle - resumes send to everyone - find a animator I wil work on it now, and tomorrow. Go for payer analysis! This is another reminder to work on Kyle. He will be the CEO, and I need to establish rapport with him as soon as possible. Joe will be gone, potentially Andrea will be gone too. Work with Joe on my salary increase. How? Before September things will get where should be…

What I want from Mike.

meet 2 types of people:

- women in director role in medium to large companies, in tech, not non-profit and marketing

- mentors:

- career politics

- career skill

- personal dev