Sunday July 16th

In 10 days is my birthday. Oh, just writing it makes me scared. I am scared about the future.

Let me concetntrate what  is important. Things get harder when you have to think about another person, and when you think about your children. And I do think about my children. Putting your children first, but working hard. I think its this way - get and accomplish things. Surely do accomplish mind blowing things.

Listening to very beautiful Snowapple songs. What are you thinking about?

I am thinking about B. Our future, our trips, our visit kz, our future days together. I am a little scared of course. Because it is a scary thing. To marry someone you love.

You worried about your job, because there are several things you can do:

- you can become director of content, work only on content. not a lot of responsibility, nice job. areas: accept content, release content, add features, develop strategies, bring them in. Not a lot of struggle work. Don't get too much responsibility. Work on other things

- become lead product manager.

- become director of strategy.

About your job what is clear is

1. you have to talk to Hanam and K-team and get direct communication line with them before Kyle is back. Why- so you are more informed when talking to Andrea

2. you need to get a couple one on ones with Joe. - so he can recommend you in the future and get you a good promotion.

Another unknown is where I would like to live? Where I would like to work

I would like to live in SF, but I need to buy a house there. I can buy a house in Chicago and Seattle. Or we can rent out our SF property.

I would like to get married, have a baby and start my company. If so, I would like to work another 12 month being pregnant, then do your startup. What is it. Am I sure about getting married now. Do I want to wait.

I think we should marry next spring. I would like to work hard on my startup until then. Maybe I will get married and start my startup and will be unhappy. But I will make it work. I would live in Houston, SF, London.

What about work - I will just work on 1.0 and do a lot of learnings machine learning, and more and more travels, and horizon expansion. Do what I wanted to do.

I would like to get this promotion.

I will go to SF to think about it all.

Am I postponing my life too? My big and glorious days of shining and building and being number one, being an inspiration. I need visualization and good anticipation.

Ah, I am happy that B asked this question.