October 26th

October 26th. I let you in my space, and you don't know how to behave in it. Even writing this words makes me feel weak and in pain and yes angry.

What does it mean? He wrote me a letter today, saying that he will meet Mei, but it was troublesome because I change my plans all the time. He will commit to it, and he has his whole week in anticipation, then I change my plans and it sucks.

He wrote me kind of implying that he doesn't trust me. And it's better to not to meet me, rater than being fooled and worried about me. It's true about both men. My father and B.

My father is an old case. And I let it go. there is nothing you can do about it. When I receive letters like this from him, I don't want to see him either.

I promised I will do everything not to hurt him.

Bitter