October 24
In my journey to MBA, I had a clear goal. Now a different journey I have - the one where I see only fog. It's not a castle, it's not a dungeon from where I have to go up to the tallest tower. It's a wood forest with no clear path, very foggy forrest. It anyway will bring me to a valley of prosperity and sunny days of magic. But before that, it is scary. It;s a constant fear that I am lost and may be going to the wrong direction. That's why I can't run fast or climb high. I am afraid I am going the wrong direction.
Turn the forest into a nice walking place. Walk and run and explore and look for the magic kingdon. Just walk along the way, go go and go on one direcction, yes you will never get back to the place you left, you won't find your way back. You will go and climb and go and will find it. Listen to your inner voice. Work hard. It's kind of a place of no return. You actually can and know where is the next valley with berries. But you decide to go there and can't go the waterfall anymore. It's too far away.
That's okay. May be you cant go to the berry valley, may be it's impossible without some super power. The one who is looking will find. You will go back and get to the waterfall and eventually to the magic kingdom where you are super respected person that go the magic kingdom cause now you can talk to presidents, superstars and everything you wish can come true. Because you are so rich, so connected and so smart.
What I need now is a tree, a tall and strong tree. The one I can climb and look, look around to see where the kingdom is, what is the best way to get there, and most importantly what is required to get there, what obstacles are awaiting and how to get ready for them. I am looking for a Mentor. It's not someone I know, it's a new guy.
How do I find him? I will ask Carter, Laura, Linda, Melissa, Kreamer.
What I need advice with? I don't know how to make my move after Kellogg. I want to talk to someone who will be my friend, who will be with me in this process of getting myself back to speed.It's not that work a lot and lost my sight of happyness, it is that I want to work hard and tirelessly where I enjoy and see my best skills shine and if it is risky, let it be, I want to make sure that my integrity and character stay intact, and that I have a friend in my journey, a father.
What do I do today to make it happen - do I talk to all of the and choose one? Today I email Kraemer and talk to Laura and schedule Linda.
Today I made mu moves towards: 1. corporate job - Target and Amazon; 2. Mentor - Brenda and Laura. Rest of the day I will focus on: 1. VC job 2. mundane issues: tickets, living space, Arstan, and Navitas