my compas

Dear diary,

I am little sad. Because I today signed a letter of non-compete. Also, even thought I am grateful for a job offer and the opportunity to work in US, I feel tied. I am certainly doing better than a lot of people. Making just as much money as amazon, microsoft and other top giants, and work a lot  less. I secured a job that pays me well, and sponsors my visa. It is a big achievement. For some reason I feel sad.

One reason is Seattle. I am afraid to live in the city with no sunshine, and no luxury :)

Another reason is gaming industry. Yet another reason is I will need to marry someone, because I can't marry him. It is for better.

I expect some hard time coming in at the beginning. The lower the expectations, the better the results. It also kind of shows me how I will have to work hard to get to where I want to be. Which is a great founder of an amazing billion dollar company. I am very stubborn, conviction and dedication are my strengths. I will make it happen or die.

Oh God please guide me.

Manifestation of the destiny is what is awaiting for me. Today I am sad, beacuse I think of him. and I love him you know that.

Now I feel I am under performing for CET. Ah, I am tired. I wold like to take a week off my cet commitment. Many things I should've done, and I didn't because I don't want. hahah. Don't want to. Not a lot of energy. Not a  lot of motivation.It is time to face it - I am dim-motivated to work on CET. My motivation has broken. I am jsut not a great follow through person. I usually work for a year, and if see no greatest results, I am like oh I am looking for a way out. It's me. I respect it. Means in the first year it should be amazing results and amazing people. As soon as I straighten out my visa status. I should've gotten it while in kellogg.

In fact there are so many ways to go about the status, and startup. I need a lazer focus.

I should take it easier, it is just a competition. Great people are with me in it. How do I look at the competition. I just go and pitch. I need to own it. I need to go and reach out to GGP, NU. If we won't win it is better than over exaggerate. So keep the compas clean.

Ovarall, I must tell you - I need to become a more giving person. otherish giver, volunteer, and don't take things for granted. Am I a giver?