May 8th

I am in Rafe. I feel I need solitude and silence, I want to touch inner world, pray and feel my inner space. Here's what I learned in Astana:

- I want to bring little gifts for everyone I love - Roza, mom, Madina and all girls, Ridal, Ashat, Sandu, t Olya, d Sasha, Madjit, Akmaral, Zhanel, Asemgul, Dinara, Murat, Aida, Tatyana all jezdes. Show them I love them - they should know I care about them. I will bring my loving intentions with those gifts.

- I want to own myself and my space in Astana. Not a guest but the owner, I feel I am a prince of this town. A very lived wonderful prince. I will get all my friends together - do activity with them pay for them and show them my love

- Own my place within my family. Invite everyone to a cool activity together and tell them how much I love them.

- Show and be there for my mom - organize her house - go to an activity with her - really shower her with my love

- prepare myself for the visit - dye my hair- buy American clothing.

- prepare games to play with my little ones - show them mechananics and coding, do things with hands, they will grow up fast and I need to show them I love them.

- Go visit my ancestors first days of arrival. Come visit my support group - Uljan, Roza first days of my arrival.

- If all good, go to the kazakh thinkers events

Maybe I will come at the end of summer. I want to be more present in lives of my family and people I love. Because I really really love them.

I prepared games for my sweet nephews. Let's see how we can play them