May 7th Friday

I got back to work after a long walk to capitol hill. I bought a book, I ate good dinner at safeway, I relaxed, listened to music. Completely enjoyed my time. I spend this evening without him, and I am happy. Though I often think about him, I am happy that I have an excuse not to see him tomorrow, because I am going to watch rowing event, and because because I can spend some time with Namrata and girls. and because he is going to miss me, hahaha. he won't even know it, but he will.

I am happy to be away of his grip, and have an opportunity to say someone on my own. I can't confront, but I can punish, in my humble way. It is an easy punishment, easy way for me to go.

The book called - the road to Character, is interesting. It is about self devotion to a cause. the woman described there - Francis is very similar to Bryan. She has very little emotion, and she probably doesn't care about other people's emotions. Even thought she fights for a good cause - help workers, she doesn't emphasize emotionally with them. She sees broken bones, and damaged bodies, and fights for less damage. Incapable of simple empathy. Bryan is also good at taking care of ill and homeless. No one can argue that homeless needs help. But sometime homeless is happier than a son of a heartless man.

A lot of good-doers are heartless. they compensate for lack of empathy by helping logically in need people.

The devotion of Francis I didn't reciprocate to. It is a win loose situation, where loose is not given. I am eager to continue reading the book.