May 13th Sunday home

Dear diary. I am little nervous because Aza told me some harsh words. I know he is nervous and weak. He needs to grow up.

Today I spent my day all by myself. I did my laundry. I cooked some quinoa for myself. I went to cafe presse, I witnessed a conversation between young entrepreneurs, and ate amazingly delicious food. In the evening I talked to Madina Lausheva.

I remember a dog barking at me- when I got out of the car at Liv's. I remember how angry I was -I looke at the dog as if he was my enemy - why are you barking, it pisses me off, I am ready to kick you. Today at the apple store, a couple cut me off, and I got very angry. Those are all signs of my period being close and an idea that I am not on the right path.

From the time I graduated I had big goals in the horizon - I reached and surpassed those horizons. I make six figures, and I am blessed to win the h1b lottery - I am lucky.

When I think about 2 years at DDI I start feeling depressed. I would like to work for another 6 months at DDI - have a long at least 6 months time off - travelling, feeling myself, learning, building. - then getting director job at Microsoft- at the same time working on my startup. When I am up and flying with my startup - I am very successful and am ready to get things done till the end - I am an extremely awesome leader.