January 19

I am depressed.  I am not sure of anything. I feel bad that I am 30, and am living in the hostel. What a shame. I feel bad that I am the only one who didn't get a job. All other international students did get a job, and I didn't. Okay first year I was arrogant, and didn't even look at the jobs that are not super top. Second year I tried my best and had bunch of interviews, but in the middle I gave up, because I realized that startup is my way to go. Now I am struggling as an entrepreneur. I came to understanding that I need a stable job, to get myself on a normal speed, and to learn.I need a job in any scenario, and I need to start a family in any scenario.

Remember Kellogg, I didn't know whether I will get in or not. Everyone told me I won't. But I really understood that credentials is important. I wrote wonderful letters, and reached out to crazy cool people and asked them to write letters for me. I also saw another problem in my application - the fact that I don't have formal business education. I enrolled in UChicago program, and got A on economics.Most importantly, I came really prepared for the interview. I learned everything about the interviewer, and I learned that he cares about the social cause, and politics, and I included expressed my political view there. I was just in the role. I looked good and confident. All of these made me accepted to the school of my dreams.

I believe I didn't spend my time at Kellogg in a best way. First year - i didn't know basic business tools, I came out of cave. I also didn't want to interview with okay companies. I didn't understand that I should focus. I was irritated by kellogg people - I am still irritated by Kellogg environment. Second year I felt comfortable.

I think I should've put more effort into getting a job. But what could've I done better. I could've build a credibility of myself as an expert in a field. Instead I tried rotation programs, but wasn't accepted.

Now to get a job, I should overdo things just like in kellogg admission. Just overdo things in every direction. In communication:

1. ask, beg, impress Namrata and Emily for introduction to decision makers.

2. ask Alessio to really help you, to really organize a coffee chat with a boss

3. call Neeta - ask her to help you, to organize a coffee chat with a boss.

Work on your profile:

1. put more connections

2. add logos

3. ask for recommendations

Common girl, do it. Do your best!

One observation from my time recruiting is showing up to uninvited places , may not be the best way to go. Instead follow up with several nice emails. and continue the conversation. Share things. That is hard for me. What do I share? continue conversation - 5 touch points in 7 weeks.