I think I did very well without him

I think I did very well without him last week. I met friends every day! I met Kate on Wednesday, Jenny on Thursday, concert - unforgettable concert of snowapple on Friday, Saturday I met Emily, and Sunday I by myself bought food and organized a dinner for my friend.

I was strong. I think I came to understanding that I am going to survive without him. What made me feel better is that he was giving out some signs- he put out a tree a gift, and a pillow. I saw his new car. I had a feeling that the string is not broken.

Today I sent him a message telling - Happy anniversary. I am waiting for his reply. He won't. I talked to my friend Meru - her boyfriend OMG very bad guy - called her and said he wanted her back. She gave me a tutorial on how to let the guy go - I read it and I couldn't do it yet.

I am going to give him his belongings today, and then do the ritual, I will keep doing it every day. Untill I let him go.

The story of my dad - was very intense. I could've easily wrote a book. Now I don't remember what made it so intense. The inspiration is gone. I am afraid to let him go - because maybe I will forget what is the inspiration. I know that it is real and I want to juice it out.

I will give him my gifts today. I will leave them next to his door and my healing will start.

I want to be his friend