gambling addiction to B

yes, I really want to be with Bryan. It's not easy fall out mode- that I have no other things to do. It is more than that. I have a lot of friends , and even a friend home, who might be in love with him, and who will listen to me, who will give thoughtfull and loving advice. But I want I don't want to tell him all. I want to go and tell it to Bryan, because it is hard. There is a desire to be understood and loved. The fun part of this relationship - is random result. Like gambling. You open the refrigerator door, and sometime you see a candy, sometime you see nothing. But you will pay to open it. And you suffer when you loose. It is addicting. I am experiencing gambling addiction to Bryan.

My answer to his asks is always yes. His is sometime yes. sometime no. I am trying to figure out the logic behond this. Trying to open the door in a write way, with certain amount of pressure, drink water with left hand before you go. Sometime I just can't and just go, go, go. Can't control myself.

At the end of the book, I find the answer.

This is going to be pretty interesting book.

Another thought about writing a book.

Priority wise:

Azamat,

Airbnb

team of developers

book