December 28th Thursday at work

Bryan is not my second half. He is good looking strong man, not very intellectual, more of a logistician, his mind is full of uncategorized things, and he is self centered, he think he is right all the time, he is a little judgemental about people and their choices, he likes to talk about sex and different sex variations - girls, gay etc.

I like to talk about big achievements, extra ordinary results.

He wants to give one not volatile stream of care, that he wants to give, his way and not change himself even a little bit. It's hard to convince him of something or teach him anything new. He likes to observe. His words are surviving, deep, complex, nuanced, higher level. he doesn't get to happy or too excited about experiences, he does get excited about himself and how he handled the situation. He likes his uniqueness. And cherishes his uniqueness. He doesn't apologize because he thinks that he already very internationally thought about everything, and made decisions.

He thinks of himself first always.

Explorer and logistician

Good parts: he is generous, not hang up on things, and open minded to all kind of experiences. He is tremendously strong with his will power, and self discipline. He is very clean. He sees beauty in life and even in hard situations.

When I am with him and talking about out of this way achievements - he has a different more balanced idea of it. I like extraordinary, not balanced idea of it. When we talk about science, he is clueless. He likes to show me that I am wrong, or thinking too primitive. He does things only his own way.

I found a lot of pleasure of being with him, because he looked at me and liked me. He wanted to take care of me - his own way - like bras, things he buys me, all very very nice. Because he showed me what real high level looking at things is. Because he didn't talk about his private interest like my friends. He had a good idea of bad talking people, lost people, primitive people - who just want things for themselves. He is not a selfless man. He taught me deepness and calmness, and acceptance of my nuanced self, he taught me to see beauty in not perfect shapes and forms, he taught me see uniqueness in city streets and spaces. He taught me brave and yourself, expressive and yourself is good. He gave me a platform to express myself to the world, where I will be understood and admired, because this is strong Ada.

In his eyes I am a strong, self sufficient, interesting person, who knows how to resolve problems, and leads intentional life. I am this person now. I am a mature, deep person. I became one.

I don't know what I taught Bryan. Did I bring anything new to his life?