December 1st 2018

I am in SF. Good - very good and bad feelings I have. Good ones- I had so much fun in SF. I, as usually, was swimming and drowning in the ocean of love of Z. He makes me feel powerful, and mostly very loved. There was also a feeling of peace in me.

In Chicago in Cambria hotel - I had an euphoria - the one my dad talks about.

I have a lot of doubts and worries. I sometime think that I am not good at working with young technical talent, and that is what I would like to do - especially in a startup world - you have to be technocratic. Short, technocratic, competent.

I became data driven person. Do I like it?

Do I want to become technocratic person? do I? I will answer this question one day.

My mantra- I very much like love capable people and their dreams. I would like to share my love with them and help them achieve their dreams.

Here are my bad feelings - I don't see the same type of commitment from Shashwat.

Things I learned from the past 6 months management experience:

1. don't bring everyone to standup meetings - divide groups by domain and build strong bond and respect for the domain. Better build 2-3 strong groups, than 1 average.

2. Divide senior people and junior people- show more respect to senior people.

3. make sure that the team is not homogenious - it is possible that they won't bring new ideas, or that they have similar measures for success.

4. be more humble. how?

5. be more technocratic