December 11

What does it look like to be unapologetic ally confident?

It actually means acting with conviction. Let's observe. haha. let's see when I am acting with a conviction, when I am not so convinced

What problems regarding speed I have:

when I get a task to complete - I say - I will find myself perfect circumstances - (tonight with coffee, tomorrow after meditation, before going to sleep) - whatever I think is the right environment for this task. For small tasks like - sending email, I almost never reply on my mobile and right away. I will wait till the given time to answer all  my emails. When it comes to bigger projects, I would start imiddiately, then I decide to look into it with fresh eyes later. Or  I could say I will dedicate my whole saturday, whole wednesday on it, and then I am overhwelmed by responsibility. Another thing I will always ask for feedback, template, additional things, to make it good. Then other people of course are not going to reply me right back. Then I just wait till they reply. I am afraid that I am behaving myself not in a commonly accepted manner. Examples: applying for jobs. I am like well let me really find out everyhting about this company, reach out to people I know, then prepare resume, then check it 100 times, then apply, and wait. Or with any task. I will have a frameowork usually. My strategy or framework come immidiately to me. Then I kind of expect other people do the repetitive job - but I have to do it. So it gets postponed.

I noticed comparison all the time. From now on I won't. If  I will work as EA to CEO, I am okay with it. If I have to do sales, I am okay with it. If I ride uber I am okay with it. Money wise it is still hard to not compare beacuse my means of living are really in the order of magnitute are crazy. When I can sustain my balances I will be like okay, I am happy with what I have.