August 16

yesterday I decided to blog about my entrepreneur journey everyday. I will write everything.I am dreaming of marrying a man in this city. I don't know whether he is free or not, but I know that he can be my soulmate I was so looking for, and can help me make my dreams come true. I let it go, and am just waiting for the fortune to put us together. May be I should do more than that. I don't know how? Please help me with a hint. Give me the right way to meet him. Fill my journey with magic.

It's better than I ever even knew. They say that the world was built for two.

Besides this. Every week I am struggling between  keeping up  with my startup or finding a job. If I think about it everyday, it's not good. There are reasons that stop me from  quitting and firing me up to go forward. I am sometime afraid that those reasons are not right. My reasons:

1. I want to be on paper. I want to be on media. I want the world to hear about me. I want status.

2. The fact that everyone failed before me is making me want to prove how it really should be done.

3. I want to be boss and I like what I am doing everyday. I wish I could do more of it everyday.

4. I want to learn how to be founder of a tech company, of a software startup. It is exciting and I am learning a lot.

5. Looking for a new job is daunting and a painful process.

6.  I like the access to coolest people in the city and ability to talk to them one on one and learn how this powerful world works

The reasons I am about to quit:

1. Small chance we will be big, small chance it is scalable. Question is how small? Also, everyone I talk to in this industry said it is hard, everyone had a bitter taste in his mouth. Everyone said don't waste two years of your life on  something that doesn't work. To me if we can crack fast integration, fast sales cycle and build a strong brand, we will be champions. Everyone must have INjoo. Am I delusional?

2. My team is not full time, so i don't have everyday feedback from them. Can't  share my wins and downs with them. It is robbing me of joy.

3. My team is not top-class entrepreneurs, who will work till death to make it life. May be I am mistaken.They are actually really committed. But they don't read about entrepreneurs, they don't think how to be disruptive startup. They just work. They are a little ignorant on that perspective I think.

Okay. I laid it down. Interestingly money is not on the agenda. Visa is not on the agenda. Sometime I think I should get experience somewhere like amazon and then go for a startup. Have some real world experience, where I have to be an employee and I have to listen.

Things that must be done this week:

1. Incorporate LLC

2. talk to Gary Kremen

3. talk to Linda

4. perform a wonderful presentation on Friday