April 5th

10 more days and my father leaves US. I am in Vegas, at the conference. I had a good feeling this morning. I listened to a speech given by carnegy melon professor, and thought I should watch motivational sincere speaches by smart people all the time. Easy: If you do proper things, your dreams will come to you. If you do proper things your dreams will come to you.

Don't complain and wind. Imagine this guy had in his contract - do not complain if people spit on you. Don't complain, just play your game.

Apology three parts: I am sorry. It was my fault. How can I repair it? The last part is forgotten often. Bryan and I had split because he doesn't know the last part.

People are more important than things. Example: his car and his nephew. Bryan he was raised badly. He tries and he doesn't know what to do. The fact that he is hanging out with that little lady is the prove. I can see it's not right.

I am not going to do not right thing. Yesterday I calmed myself down with some writing. I have this nice remedy - I can calm myself with writing. Here's what I thought: humble, and inherently confident. remember Khalid Ali and professor Kramer - Khalid bought coffee to a stranger who yelled at him. He showed humility, and true confidence. A lot of people don't have true confidence.

The minute I liked Matthew McCall so much is because he has true confidence. One that can change the reality at any given time. I need to be around people like them. I recognize it.

This was my prayer yesterday:

Ada is walking, and people love her. Ada s sitting and people love her. Ada is talking , people admire her, love her, truly like her. Ada is looking and people love her. Ada loves everyone back. She loves people she will meet, she loves people she will talk to. She loves people she will be in touch. She loves everyone who enters her life. And people love her back