Life and Death. Death...

Almost no tears. It feels like my eyes just dried out and there is no tears left to cry. Somewhere deep inside I know that he will be better there and his soul is at peace now. Both of them... This is not whining or seeking for support. Well, if I am writing it here, probably I need someone to read this. Maybe it will help and alleviate all this. In general, these are just the thoughts I cannot and do not want to share with anyone out loud.

You live every day as if it is given to you for granted. You breathe air, consume food, sleep, go to work, enjoy weekends, go to work again, find love, make love, enjoy life, sometimes curse it, cry for no reason, sometimes for a reason. And one day you die. Your parents, your loved ones and your relatives mourn for you - some longer, some not much, but the world keeps spinning and except for those several people noone will notice you are not there anymore.

Have you ever died? I have. For 2 hours first. My body was sleeping, but my brain was watching a cartoon. I was a small blue man with big eyes and no clothes on. I was standing on a tiled floor hiding behind The God and He was saying: 'say your name or you will die. You choose: He will die or you will. All you need is to say your name'. And I didn't say a word. Then I died. I saw me - that little blue man laying on a tiled floor behind the God - and my soul was flying away. And then I woke up. Alive. But dead inside. Dead for almost 6 months...

The cartoon is still there, still vivid.

Message: Enjoy your life, live life to its fullest - do not waste it for unnecessary shitty talks or thoughts. Tell the people you appreciate that you love them, dream with your eyes closed and breathe air with your chest open, fall in love, enjoy sunrays and raindrops. Stop whining. One day, maybe tomorrow or today, you will die and noone will notice that among almost 8 bln of people in this world one is missing.

My dear reader, thank you for your time and your attention, be blessed! <3