I don't believe in love

Based on story of my close friend.

I do not believe in love, and used to do that as long as I remember myself. But one day in December of 2010, my life changed. I met an angel, who made me believe in this feeling. She was one of the best students of my course and her innocence made my stereotype of modern girl disappear. She was like a bright ray of light in this dark world. I felt myself like high-school boy running after a girl…it was like childish love, you know. I was thinking about her every moment of my life. Closing my eyes I was dreaming about our future family, children playing around, while we are sitting in our house and speaking about news or plans. I didn’t see anybody else, I was falling asleep writing huge text message, I was waking up in the morning earlier in order to wake her up. We were talking hours to each other, time with her was flying too fast. So, first time in my life I started to understand the worth of time…

In modern world, it seems that feelings are more important than social issues…but my life taught me that indeed it is not so. We were from different worlds. She was from one of the top social classes, while I was ordinary enthusiastic student of Medical University. Due to the childish maximalism we didn’t bother a lot about it. But like in ordinary dream, there was a moment to wake up. And this moment came after couple of months. I wanted to be with her, but she wasn’t ready for it, because before she hadn’t had any relationships…So my pride was stronger than me and my feelings…I gave up. I thought that there are a lot of girls in this dark world. But again I wasn’t right. Everyday of last 2 years I can’t excusee myslef…

…I am glad to announce you, my dear reader, that at the moment she is married and has happy family life with one daughter and husband, who is older than she and has good social status…to be fair with you let me write that one of the best statuses in country.

Then I woke up today and was happy to realize that it was just a dream…So, I still don’t believe in love, the feeling that made a lot of people to suffer… I don’t want to suffer and hope that in my life there is no place for love.