Diary entry #15

A time to rant. I am a huge day-dreamer and this is bad. The amount of time I have wasted is enormous. Now that I think about it, it could be linked to my old-habits of binge-reading. Maybe I should try to go back to that times. As a way to control my day dreaming, or write a novel. The time and effort should not go without something left to cling on.

I start to think about the day I would post on Facebook my body transformation. That day is not coming soon but I still have a hard time getting it out of my head. Sometimes I even doubt the whole idea of making a post. While the picture would be figured out closer to my final form, the text. I am concentrated on the text.

How to Get Fit and Lose Weight

Journey A

a) Get motivated

b) Try nothing

c) Fail

Journey B

a) Forget about the problem

b) Go to camp, lose 7kgs in 2 weeks, very active + controlled portions.

c) Get back home, look up BMI on the Internet, get sad and lose motivation to carry on.

Journey C

a) Get motivated

b) Exercise everyday

c) Fail

Journey D

a) Get motivated

b) Self-created over-restrictive diet

c) lose 5 kilos in 2 weeks

d) looks like enough, get back to the old habits

Journey E

a) Ignore the problem

b) Get even fatter, get asked by the doctor if you are diabetic or prediabetic, "not even that?"

c) Carry on

d) Get ill with pneumonia

e) Carry on

f) Go to Reddit, stumble upon r/fatpeoplestories

g) Get motivated, thanks to the Caterham series

h) Stumble upon mentioning of r/fatlogic and CICO

i) Download MFP and start using kitchen weights.

j) lose 10 kilos in 2 months, eating sweets, drinking sodas

k) sign up to the gym, weight loss slows down, add waist measurements

l) Internal debate on whether get to 85, 80, or even 71 kilos.

m) feel frustrated and write this

n) carry on

o) results pending