Diary entry #14

Have been hitting the gym for almost two weeks I guess. Ironically, I can clearly see the progress mostly on my legs. Some muscles are quite defined, though they are still covered by the layer of fat. The gainz of being 107 or 108 kilos for almost a year. And God knows it could have been way more, I just was too chicken to find out and ignore the scales for quite a while. Just recently I noticed a small piece of paper on the fridge; I figured it was an unsuccessful attempt to track my weight. The numbers were consistently going around 107 kilos. Now, they are going around 97 kilos, as a matter of fact my weight was 96.3 kilos right after I took a shower. The main problem with going to the gym is the fact that the weight does not show the real progress. Me being lazy tracks only the size of the waist, and the progress there was more illustrative than in the numbers mentioned above. 1 kilo in almost 2 weeks, is not impressive, but 4 cms sounds better.

Even though my eating habits have had improved drastically, since I started tracking calories in the MyFitnessPall application; there are some trends I do not quite like. I find consuming zero calories sodas and energy drinks very delightful, thanks to the artificial sweeteners I guess. The caffeine in them poses a certain threat. I kinda already got hooked up to it. I had a period when I was quite hooked up to it, and withdrawal was no joke. I guess, I should give up Monster and Pepsi max and Coca Cola light, etc. But they are so good in battling my sweet tooth.

I guess, before a lot of overeating came out of boredom. And boredom was the result of being fat? Vicious circle.

I had to cut some people out of my life. The void inside still bothers me, but it was a good decision. They were clouding my judgement. Once I will deal with all the bullshit going on in my life I will go and meet them, to show them. And I will enjoy the moment.

For some reason I was fantasizing about the moment when I would update my photo on Facebook, like showing the 6-pack (dreams :D). Should I write a rant about not being able to lose weight, because I learned about the crucial pieces of information from Reddit?!

Or should I just take a picture of mine body with abs, with face covered by Reddit logo. So people would be like is it his body or not?