Felt like I needed to write something. Probably won’t be anything significant. But hey, I had an urge, so here I am to fulfill it. That’s what blogs are for. Isn’t it?
My country is a mess. It’s in such a big mess it makes me suicidal. Well, that and an enormous baggage of psychological issues. See I’m just a “little man” in this system, a working class citizen. So I have no power in decision making over BIG QUESTIONS, involving BIG CAPITAL, regulated by BIG BOYZ from the capitol. And that stresses me out BIG TIME! I mean, the world as a whole is in deep shit. Because Capitalism and Monetary System are outdated and we’re supposedly on the verge of an energy crisis, and there is a new financial crisis in process, and there is a crisis of conciseness. There are so many crisis’s that next time I hear a politician saying a word crisis I’m gonna fucking flip. Matter of fact, next person that says crisis in my presence will get punched in the ear. Naw, I’m just playing. But I hope you feel where I’m going with this. And if you’re not, I don’t blame you, cause I forgot what the fuck I was writing about…
Oh, yeah, “the world is in deep shit” – but Kazakhstan has an exceptionally unique way of sinking in this shit. For example there are countries with little amount of natural recourses or huge population, or countries with poor infrastructure, or small land, or ones that been colonized for too long and now struggling find a place in “oh, so” competitive Free Market world, or ones that were considered to have a lack of Democracy and now NATO and US Forces “bringing it” to them through multi-billion Industrial Military Complex. I mean, there are countries with some serious problems that are hard to deal with. Kazakhstan has none of them! We have plenty of space and so many resources that for the last 20 years we’ve been living of nothing else but selling them, our population is less than Moscow’s suburbia and thanks to our Russian and Chinese neighbors, the lack of Democracy in our country is carefully overlooked by Western world. Which is why we don’t have tanks and troops of mercenaries “bringing true Democracy” to us. Well, that and oil contracts help too. So, basically having all these “clean slate” advantages doesn’t prevent us from being heads deep in this shit. This is why we’re so unique.
I understand that we as a country are still very young and we’re just starting to gain our so called “national identity”. But sometimes it feels like our government is run by lazy morons that don’t know any better than “bank roles, expensive cars, money, clothes and hoes”. Will we ever get out of this dump with such detrimental mentality? Thinking about this makes me wanna apply for a visa to some beautiful-where and be like – “Bye-bye! See ya in… uh, NEVER!” I feel bad for my country and for my people. Walking the streets I see faces full of stress and exhaustion. And it shows on us. Did you notice that society has become extra evil, extra greedy and extra manipulative lately? This is probably why, a lot of us are extra angry and extra depressed all the time. There is no sense of tomorrow. I hope there are some sane individuals among those who in power that realize it. Otherwise we’re screwed!
I don’t mean to be bitter. I notice good stuff too. For instance, it’s amazing how people try to do their best with what they have. It’s inspiring. I see so much potential in us as a nation. But without adequate social programs and fare distribution of wealth that potential is hardly ever to unfold. This is why I seriously have no respect or faith in our leaders. It’s just an opinion. And you know what they say about opinion? That it’s like an asshole – everyone has one. So for my opinion not to turn me into a total asshole, I wish you all out there happiness and all the good things in abundance! And ask God to show mercy on us. Cause, oh boy we need it.
Peace to your homes!