Do you feel sometimes that this world is not enough for you? That there is a hunger inside of you to experience, embrace and comprehend the entire world and even more? I think I have it.
I wanted to be a doctor- I dropped out of medical university, I wanted to be a a journalist- well, I didn't become one, but I can freely write articles and publish them. I wanted to experience a different culture-I studied and lived in the US for four years. Still, I want more. Drive is what keeps me going, but it also makes me wonder whether there will be a point at which I will say: "Yes, I am fully content, I've achieved everything I wanted". Believe me, it is not about achieving and distinguishing myself from others. What I always crave for is new adventures and events that will catalyze my personal growth. I am a feeler, I am a thinker- I am a person that does not like to be limited in my emotional, mental and spiritual capacities, rather, I would love to expand in all of these dimensions.
This is quite abstract, I know. People are so quick to judge and criticize other people, but do they know themselves? I am trying to describe my internal condition, and see, how complicated it sounds. So, the only thing left for me is to accept my internal hunger and go wherever it takes me. Because, I know that whichever road I choose, the end of it will be just an another milestone, a starting point for another road full of adventures. That is, there is no absolute and finite end of the journey to yourself
December 29, 2010