Finally got what I needed, but you know, it is not what I expected. As always something wrong or wrong choice or impatience, but maybe this is what I need not what I want. Overcoming it, but still got no satisfaction. Convincing myself like be patient, fight with it, or just live with it. Anyway, at least I know that I really got it and its time to step further, I should put another goal, and try to achieve it too, because life with any goals its like bird with no wings. So wish me good luck!