i am at home now; it was nice evening
german friend met me in my place. when we were walking to city center i felt so great as i felt at first time when i arrived here, when every students just started to have their erasmus time. when we were walking from bars and clubs in same weather, road and atmosphere. at those time the weather was same warm and the air telling you 'you are free, you have a power to realize anything that you want'. and i felt that, i believed that the world is on my hand. the same was today, but with feeling it was a long time ago..
now it is all done, everybody is moving from their place, go back home. to their family, real friends, just normal life. leute time is passing so quick like water through fingers.. somebody adviced me to have whatever i wish, do whatever i want. cause that will go away soon. in his mind it was as many boys i can carry as many parties and drinks where i can attempt. but i am grown up. if i run then just after my dream.
but is that the meaning of the life? to run after thing that you should try, catch, no matter how you are dealing with your feelings. time is running, nothing stops, if u dont take it, you loose. i want to explore the world but not in that crazy temp, that 'you should get it, you should get it'. i am already settled down, i need quiet life, to enjoy life, feel it.
i dont know what is going to be in the future with us. maybe things will turn not as we want. but whatever will happen i want u to know i am really happy to have you in my life.